well......

...today is my 15th birthday. but i feel about 5. i need to start over. someone told me they only way is up. but how do you get up? i dont kno. im so lost. i feel...not alone but out of myself. like im not really me. i drooped everything and took a turn in my life so fast, all b/c.....all b/c...... i mean kno i made the right choice. but why do i still feel this way? i feel lost. Buddy says you can come home, but how do you get home? Im on my way. i think. i want to be. GAHH WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!? i need..... i need. to cry. to scream. to be happy. i need to fricken swing dance! I still wear a masque. some one plz TAKE IT OFF. and hide it from me. i dont no what to do.........


oh and by the way


happy un-birthday.