Life.

Here it is . I said i;d write it so i am.

Life, as seen by ME

Huh, I, at 15 don't really know what life is.

But what i do know is confusing as heck.

i know theres pain.

i feel it sometimes. and it sucks.

a lot. like when i feel...how im still growing apart form you

i know that things will happen that don't understand.

friends will leave. boyfriends ( or girlfriends) will stop liking you when you still like them

You can like someone so much it hurts.

but they barley know your there.

when you have been friends for a while.

i know that friends will get sick. really sick.

i know that sometimes you can;t talk about your pain.

i know that sitting alone is good. and its bad.

i know that every minute with you is a gift.

i know we are growing apart.

i know the female mind drives guys insane,

and i laugh at that.

i know we have a short time on earth.

i know thins are going to get us down,

and we need friends....

SO I ask..........are you my friend? or some one who got my blog form buddys?

or someone who found my blog some how and is wondering why im not in a mental hospital?

so tell me your there.....leave me a comment.

please?

i need to know your out there..

b/c in letting somethings go.

i kinda lost who i had

Pink

thats right! the color blogs are back!


ha. i hope you remember...


last night i needed you....someones sick. or they might be.....i have known for a while now.....and kept her iin my prayers..last night i hit the breaking point. it was just to....real. leukemia. scary word. so. so. scary. i felt horrible last night. ...i needed you....but, ran out of time. No. im not yelling at you. It turned out to be a good thing......i lost it. and i talked to God. i was like...help me God. Help me to understand.....then i fell asleep. and i had this dream...i was at my wedding....and she was on my right...healthy.. it was like a flash of things...i was all of us...growing up. changeing. It was like i was on the outside looking in......on myself......and all of us.....


anyway im alone, im with ppl, im scared im brave, im nevous,im confident, im happy. im sad. im worried. im at peace. im in pain. and im healed Did i mention confused!

i think God is trying to find her....(shes not a christen) so...yeah. I have faith in you God. Ypu know what you are doing.
tonight i will blog....on life.


at least what i know....


so for now..

-kaitie.